EMOTIONAL

I like to put my feelings out there about my life and the people who is in my box and outside my box! There are just a hand full of people inside my box that I can say I have lots of truset in them, sad to say that's not including my family I will say this I don't consider myself part of the family! I feel like I am a stranger that is looking inside hoping that someone would look out and realise that I am a part of them. I always felt like I am a reflection they only see my shallow but not me, when I tried to go to visit for some reason I had to pretend that I am excited to be there but on the other hand I am not, people would say that I should be ashamed of myself for not trying to involve myself to be honest why should I have to show any interest? You would think that family whould be there because of my situation? It shouldn't matter if I do have a disability or not but that's life you have to roll with it and tried to have some dignity for them and respect.

I don't unstand why people take my kindness for weakness? I believe that I have a habit of clinging on to people because I am looking for some affection from somebody, so when someone that I am really close to I get attached to quickly and when things don't work out I get so emotional, evening when they just going on a trip for a while but the sad part is that I know they are returning home. I believe that I need to stop relying on others and start to have fath in myself and be strong, I know that they can't always be around but on the other hand it's ok to feel emotional about certain things because life is like a maze you just have to find your way out and have confident in yourself.

To be continue.