STRUGGLE

I been living on my own for nine years and still going strong. When I first came to live at Project Freedom I thought that I had everything going for my self! I was working for the Bus company as a bus aid it was wonderful because the parents usually don't give people with a disability a chance to work around children! They think that people with a disability aren't capable of working in the real world. When I was working I felt so good about myself that no one couldn't stop me, but something did stop me from bening happy and safe! I can remember like it was yesterday, let me start by saying before I move here I was living with a family that took care of people that has a disability well the house that I lived in it was not accessible for me, at the time I was walking with a walker I was just doing everything having fun and beening more independent.

When I returned home I have to walk up fourteen steps I guess I was so exhausted when I got to the top step I lost my balance so I hit my back on the edge of the wall, but at that time I felt nothing! The sad part about this whole situation when it happening they told me that it was a loud noise but they didn't know what is was, I said that I lost my balance and hit my back but I got no response from them.


My struggle began in 2002 that's when I started to have physical pain in my back and at that time I had no one to take care me, I was terrified because I didn't realise what was going on around me I was so confuse and tired of not knowing the problems that I was having. It took me five years to understand and to know why my body was acting crazy, I have a old injury that's why I am in a whole lot of pain, I thought I was insane because no one believe that I was in pain they made me believe that it was all in my head at one time I believe them, so I went on living and going to different doctors and they told me the same thing so I went on takinng strong medication that had me look like a zombie, what kind of life to live if you don't know who is around you at times and what's gone on? All I did was stay in bed didn't eat hardly or have a social life I just wanted to be alone how can I enjoy being around people and on the other hand having lots of pain all time? To be honest I didn't recognise my self I felt like it was a limitation of me but in a different world, but it wasn't the world that I once knew. So finally I found a solution to my problem I search around for a decent doctor he is located in Philadelphia, the solution was to get a devise planted into me so I can receive certain amount of medication in a day, most of the time it do take away some of the pain and some time it don't. Well I am going to end right here and continue another day.

To be continue.