PRIVACY

Well it been six days since I went out! Sad to repart that for some reason I am enjoying being home I feel safe and more content! Don't get me wrong I like going out an meaning people and learning about different things, but I have a serious problem with commitment to others it's like when you get to know someone and you think that person would be a good roll model for you everything is going smoothly, but for some reason you don't see that person or hear from that person and you try to understand why?

That's why I don't like to get involved with people because of that reason, I call my house my domain no one can't hurt me because I have lots of control but when I am out there I feel I have no control, I made a promise to one of my friend his name is Nick that I would try to give others a chance to be around me and to show me that other people can be there for you, but sometimes your friend don't see or I don't understand that people act different when they are not around to see! I guess when people see one person treasaying that they don't care it's just different when I am around them, I feel that I don't belong there t another person with respect and dignity they feel like they need to do the same. I am not that's really sad to feel that way.

I want to talk about having any privacy! As you know that I live on my own for nine years and still going strong, but now I am getting older and wiser its time to move on to better things, see I live in a apartment that has one big room bathrom and a kitchen, I do have someone to come in to help me with dailly choice, people would say that's great to have someone to do that, but to me it's like I gave up my privacy so I can have help, sometimes I wonder can I go on having somebody that's always in my face? I would like to move in to a bigger place so I can have more privacy so I won't feel like I am closed in and I won't feel uncomfortable having visitors over.

To be continue.