CONTRADICT

I like to know why people act so different when you have lots of money? I don't care of how much money you have, I just can't stand when fake people pretend that they are so happy for you, that might be true but on the other hand they can be lying to you who really knows? The reason why I am writing my thoughts down for everyone to read because I really believe that it's really shameful there aren't many honest people out there no more, especially your own family listen to this!

Yesterday evening I received a phone call from my mother that I lower dearly well anyway she had the dastardly to ask me can I loan her some money because she needs her house fixs, well make the long story short! I made a big mistake by telling her that I won one thousand dollars before Christmas but I wanted to tell my mom that I won knowing that she might ask I was pround of my self, I was praying that none of my family wouldn't ask me for money but I was disappointed because they did ask me. How can someone just do to me knowing that I am struggling myself? That right there just makes you think is it worth wining something that you can't enjoy? She took my excitement away from me for once I just want to think about my self I want to do me and not think of others this time, to some people that might sound like I am self-aabsorbed but really I am not! I always think of others before I think of my self, see people knows my heart and that's why lots of them taks advantage of me don't know why but I do know in my soul I am a good person and everybody knows that.

I decider to write about my life it's like a diary but this time I am leting people in so I can learn how take chances in life. I want people to learn more about me and my disability and how I am feeling dailly about certain situation. So get ready because it's going to be a long ride good an bad some of it might be painful to hear all I know that it's time to let it go!?

To be continue?